frustrated.

why do i even let my brother use the laptop when i know that when i ask for it back im not going to be able to get it back. ==

and im too much of a pussy to ask for it back. otherwise he'll hit me.
aggressive child.

i need to man up. >=D
( suddenly remembers how andy would say im the man of the relationship LOLOL )

god its hot today. >.> sticky sticky sticky.
and yes andy. i went there. i done it. hmph. LOL.

so now im stuck on the pissy upstairs computer. that has no msn.and lags like a bitch. so i decided to do blogging (: and thank you to my 17 views? apparently 17 people haved viewed my blog (Y) yuuusss.
or maybe its just me signing out and clicking on the link to my page to get my views up? ( shit i didnt even think of doing that till now -purposefully signs out- LMAO JOKES) being the total low life i am. LOL i joke. i joke. or do i? -shifty eyes-

hungry.

why does it always show the wrong time of my posting.
i think the time zone is wrong. but im too noob to know how to fix that.
( I FIXED IT GUYS ) LMFAO.

yesterday i got my hair dyed. -dies-
but it was dyed by a transvestite.named Mhar =D. so im happy.very happy. 8)
-as all my friends would know-
typical asian organey colour. but i was really worried.-still am worried-
because one.
i couldnt even recognise myself. so how are others going to recognise me =/
and two.
what if people dont like it. because im not even sure if i like it myself yet.

i did chores this morning. havent eaten anything. i can hear my tummy grumbling.:D
and im talking to elissa about god and religions/beliefs also the other such related issues. i like this conversation.

BUDDHISM FTW!
wise words from elissa : ''stop judging people by who they love and instead judge them by who they are as a person.''

funny.

thats weird. it says that in my blog entry that its still saturday -glare- stupid time-zone shitty thing. eknuoiwndiu2h3uyd :@ LOLOL.
im awake now. -just being too obvious-
its 7:38am now. but i was awake earlier.

im bored.
no one is online.
i bet if someone like suddenly pops online and starts a conversation with me randomly now it would be god damn awkward. -shifty eyes- though i don't know why it would be.

im listening to this song.
the lines were repeated. its soothing and nice.

''take a walk with me now,
take a walk with me now, i'll be your firend. i'll be your friend.

take a deep breath of air, take a deep breath of air, to clear your mind.''

and it made me think about things.
i'll alway be a friend to anyone in need. so just remember that you guys. (:
i love you all. xo xo

glad.

im glad i talked to you today.LMFAO.

im glad i talked to two no. three people today.

(:

even though i think you were drunk and probably wont remember anything of what you said. im still happy LOLOL.

you and andy both made my day. cool kids. :D

nervous.

when i look at my contacts list. you are the first one there.

im so scared to click.
im so curious. i keep thinking.
''what will happen if i just claimed it was an accident and typed 'hi' ''
but i dont need to lie about it. i should just be honest about this situation. i mean. it says your available, in your status, so maybe i should just take the chance. and see what happens.

i think i should click. mayeb i should. i should do it now.

im allowed to make un-necessary noises at awkward times.

okay wlel i bought yan yan today. -squeals- it was vanilla flavour.
saturday. hmm.. as usual its boring.

so here i was with my yan yan. pulling out the biscuit sticks and reading what was on it.
and i get a chicken and it says : kokekokko and im like thinking. i wonder how i would make that noise.. o.o
so i tried to do it. and the reaction i got from my brother was hilarious.
' asya, you reatart ' -walks away in shame-

so like. and then i also bought those weird joel things shit its actually meant ot be spelt 'jol' but i LOLOL at my fail there.joel might feel special now.tsk. and jelly cups. -drools-

msning right now. (Y)

god i want to watch my baby videos now. and have a good laugh. cause i was talkign about being a baby with andy.

today has been good. lets keep it this way. (:

waiting.

im still waiting. i wait too much.
im generally impatient, but ive become alot more patient.
by the time you realise i was, i'll be gone ( off msn).
and i have no phone at the moment.as you already know. yay. -rolls eyes- so its not like i can text you anything sweet.

but i waited like a few hours more. my eyes are growing weaker.
andy.
your name keeps being softly whispered inside my head.my eyes refuse to close as i wait. it feels weird. i feel like a creep.
i think alots of things are the reason why i have lack of sleep. but you'd have to be one of the main reasons.
im glad i can type here about you or anyone else all i want.

i'll also say something to michael tran, despite the fact he probably wont even see it.
' congratualtions on graduating school, i hope you're doing okay, we havent talked in a long time. i thought we could still be friends but maybe as i can see, you probably dont want to be.im not the type to hold grudges,i have nothing against you but,all you have to do is say hi,ill more than happily talk. im over the prolonged silence. i dont like losing people or bonds. '

yuusss. i feel like i've let out something important here.too bad. most likely he wont read it. oh well.

people get cut all the time, but a tissue wont fix it, it'll only stop the bleeding. time is what it takes to heal wounds. but i dont think i have the time to wait for my wounds to heal.

debra had a good day.

today debra came back from going somewhere.
and im happy for her. cause she was really happy.

these were her exact words :

- debra says :
asyaasyaasya. 8) i had fun today

i really hope. she enjoys herself. i wish the best towards everyone over the holidays. :]

this includes.

andy debra brenda jesse eugene lalaine loriz rohan teddy warren darro kiana rikkii elissa lachlan aaron angela sarah eunice bessie kat joel michael rea jemimah baby judy abby and everyone else that has associated with me over this past year. if ive forgotten any names. feel free to rage at me to put it here.

-

the wind knocks on the window,
over the room as small as me,
twinkling stars so beautiful filling the room with love.
Please, dont be hurt now,
caressing my wounds gently,
Embracing me to sleep.
To hurt for my legs to walk,
Eyes so blurry with tears,
Before love never meant for me,
but i will keep on smiling,
as its what i promised you.
Like those stars embroidered in my eyes,
i will always love you.

joel. i was wrong. compared to this guy. you have a life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hsikPswAYUM

oh god.
i LOL so hard.
and. and the comments. make me laugh even more.

Zpik3 - just you wait. soon this guy will figure out how to get the DS pregnant. THEN WHOS LAUGHING?!

Keimori12 - well you need some way to balance out over population in the other countrys.

xxArisGodOfWarxx - can he f*ck her?....lol

bububutterfly - oh good god....i'll kill myself if i see the day people are seriously marrying inatimate objects...

i just can't stop laughing.
and finally the last comment. im going to post.

KammmtoS - This is why us Asians arent cool ! TT ^ TT

LMFAO.

fortune cookies.

today. i decided to open a fortune cookie.

it read:

'' you will always have good luck in your personal affairs.''

debra told me to keep on having faith, to keep on believing, that everything will get better and be okay.

but i have doubts. i feel that despite him still loving me, he'll slip away.

nom nom nom.

ahh. this is interesting.
asya writing her first blog.
yusss. achievement. score. -thumbsup-
fatty would be proud -upwards pout-

yes. well.

i was meant to go to school today.
with my friends teddy(bad-ass mofo.gangsturh =D.) and rohan.(aladin/terroristLMFAO.) cause my other friends apparently have better things to do. meaning, not me. and something greater than me, cause im noob ya.
but, i chose to stay home instead. considering my brother didnt want to go because he needed to hand in an assignment.

okay well. my family.
let's break this down.
theres me ( 15 year old, half the times emotionaly unstable, curiousity always gets the better of her, unlocking her innerchild, perverted sexually crazed and yaoi loving random girl)
theres my brother (14 year old weirdo, an excuse for gays to hate their own kind type of boyLOL.just jokejustjoke..-shiftyeyes- or am i? heh.)
theres my baba (dad)
theres my mum ( we get allong i guess, shes awesome, like the type of friend ive never had.)
then theres the guy i used to look up to. my older bro. (19-21 year old.not really sure how old.LOL, works at KFC to make a mintLOLOL. hes a player. but kind hearted. havent seen him in 5 years. tsk.)

notice how i didnt talk about my dad? yeah. let's not go there.

freedom at home is good. no parents here for the time being. so i guess im content. let's hope this day goes by fast. just like the year has.