thihnking.

lately my time sleeping has been spent cuddling up to a pillow to feel warm then full of silence before i can fall asleep.
i started hiding things, alot of things too.
because i'm scared, worried and feel like sometimes it's better off for things not to be said.
i'm still uncertain if i'm making the right choices right now even if i feel like they might be right.
but never the less, i'm working towards becoming a better student at school.
focus is now a major thing i will need to keep.
the gifts i bought for everyone, i see them be used, a smile comes across my face from cheek to cheek.
the amount of happiness i feel for my friends is everlasting, all i have to do is see them happy and i'm happy too.

i'm quite naive though, I've been told this often.
but, i look to the better side of things rather than the worst.
i wonder what adventures tomorrow will bring..

i didn't get to talk to the dove today, yet i saw the sparrow. i wonder what's happening now, i don't want to loose the birds that now feel like mine. LOL

sparrow

i saw the sparrow today, i hadn't seen the sparrow in 2 months.
he came up to my window, smacking into the side, he's gotten rather chubby lately.
i laughed but felt slighty 'ouch' because it looked like it hurt.
he sits there and waits for a moment, getting up and chirps happily.
i wanted him to stay, i love his feathers, so soft and jet black.
but just as quickly as he gets up, he flyies away.
i hope i'll see you tomorrow little sparrow, you make me smile (:

i had a good day at school, i almost forgot what it felt like to be surrounded by everyone, but deep inside i felt sad. i can't explain it it just seemed like something was missing.

in my first class, which was japanese, i had nothing to do because it was exam block so i waited as time passed by till lunch. within this time i could only think this saying : ''simple is best''
it made me realise, despite feeling how i how to enjoy the rest of the day how it comes and keep a smile on my face.
also, i'm really loving my new lego block piece erasers O:

and rea called me on my home phone now telling me about her adventure to break into her house through the doggy door LMAO. my day has just gotten better (:

advice.

yesterday i got good advice just before i went to sleep.

today was a really long day for me, it involved me getting a brand new study desk though !

i'm really excited and i should be setting it up soon later on at night or something and then decorating it and things.

i should be getting my laptop fixed tomorrow too, so i'm very happy. -insert love heart-

went to garbo, i swear i thought i saw wesley == . but i guess not LOOL

there was this guy that was standing behind me when i was smelling these mens perfumes and things and i was like '' ah ~ something smells really reallyyyy good in this area''

and then the asian guy that works there was like '' ah, that'd be me ;) ''

i turned around abit embarrassed and started laughing.

he made my day :L .

anyways, i have to go to a craft store tomorrow and also buy cute little magnets for my new magnet board. -sigh- busybusy. i hope i am going to be ready for school ! i'm so nervous but i can't wait :D

black people.

recently i've wondered why all the black ( a more politer way is 'darker toned skin') people are cool.

i don't know why it is, and yet they always are.

they don't have to actually be of an African american heritage, i mean just darker skinned people in general, Viets, Chinese, some even dark skinned Japs and Koreans ! O: . but never the less, they are always cool.

therefore there must be this formula

black people = cool.

but sometimes it can also equal

black people = douche.

as i have come across many of them that take it too far.

this also has lead me to think about why there is something so wrong about black people and white people getting married.

it's merely a skin tone difference, and racial.

but this leads back to being racist and not having acceptance.

but then again, people have come to accept gay marriage, so why is there something so wrong about two different sex people with different skin colour getting married.

i rest my case.

To end this, I am in no way being racist. I am not a racist person.

wow

so, im back from overseas and i feel great.
amazing cold weather!
so i've been 16 for like 9 days now, and i still don't really feel any different, but my parents are treating me like i'm more responsible now. so, i appreciate that.

havent written to my blog for a awhile so LOOL.
hm where to start. well i had trouble sleeping, which isnt unusual
5am ( managed to finally get to sleep) and well only woke up 30 minutes ago (12:pm afternoon)

well, atleast i sleep in late now, which is somthing i've always wanted to achieve somehow but never could :L . LOL

i miss my uncle i think, overseas trip was really incredible to be honest, it's so different from australia and makes me realise that we should never take what we have for granted cause we very well could be better off in so many ways.

i cant wait until i can talk and see my friends, it has been far to long.
hope everyone is taking care (: byebye.