productive.

today i have spent my day doing hardly next to nothing.

i have had a productive day, downloading mangas for over 6 + hours of today, being quite the anti social one LOL.

im still sick, and i got into an argument over drinking some vile tasting liquid my baba had bought for me. -sigh- , i'm having to drink to now though -heavy sigh- . decided to pour a shit load of honey into it, bad idea. it created a new taste, although this taste i can stand more, it's still quite disgusting.

hm i'm forcing myself to get better, and refraining for coughing alot. im going to school tomorrow, this will be my last week before i go.

gyrados

wednesday ;

i was excited. i went to the park with cookie.
he brought me meteor cookies he'd made/baked himself. i was so disappointed though, the park had been graffittid. the slide at the park had a spraypainted gyrados on it, i LOLed but tsk'd.
i had to go early == , it was gayyy , i didn't even know i had a japanese exam. i was stressed, i couldnt even study for it. ahhh, i know i didn't go to well.

thursday ;
jordan was at school today, talked to him and stuff.
had to stay after school to do my music assignment with the teacher.
jason was there. it was cool i guess. (:

saw judy & darro, went to nightowl fish/chips store and chilled there with them for abit. :D
brenda calls me mummy, cause i look after everyone. ROFL

friday ;

im sick. all it took was wednesday night to sleep with the fan on while my hair was damp.
darro was eating my throat losenges like they were lollies. LMAO , crazy guy, hes not even sick.
i had a good day today, last lesson had brandan in my maths class (: . and ateng and me had to sit next to eachother. methias was paying me & ateng out. fucking idiot. == .
methias : what?
ateng : what? oh sorry , i got your 5 dollars for your mum aye (;
methias : atleast my mum aint free .

LOL. best come back ever.
i want to sleep, or something too tired lately. i miss people, i will miss everyone . im going overseas soon. im nervous. im scared.

stuck.

yesterday , was good i guess. LOL
was waiting at brown plains doctors for like 4hours+ .
jack Reynolds was there, HA. he saw me.
we kept awkwardly looking at each other & he'd keep laughing. he came and sat down next to me. we haven't actually talked for a whole year.
we were reminiscing over middle school days . ahahaha.
it was cool and funny.

got injections for hep A, somethingsomething and FLU shot thing.
hurts like a bitch.
my right arm makes me feel like a sped. going all retarded when i tried grabbing a cookie out of the cookie jar. it just hurt so much to move it.

today was so so.
talked to jacob and brenda. (:
it was good.
talked to brandan in sap. (: etcetc
maths class ; I FINALLY TALKED TO CHRIS. i managed to get him to speak. he like never speaks. LMAO :L

hm.
jemimah, im worried about her.
she came to my house jsut about one hour ago, in tears.
i had ot help her recollect herself. i hope shes okay.
being my noob self, i apologised for no reason.

answer

i don't know if 'you' read my blog.
i don't know if you'll ever know this, but you haven't not once been forgotten.
i still care. you're always on my mind, i'm always curious. it's just different now.
i've grown more mature with how to handle my problems, i do everyday.
it's quite shoking actually.
i even had to reject a 13 year old yesterday. ouch on that kids poor heart.
but a golden star to his original pick up line , made me laugh so hard .

i don't know what it is anymore, i just keep going on about life.
i like the way it is now. i really do. so just smile if you're reading this, cause i'm smiling too.
i don't really know what to say, i miss you and always will, but im going on about my life.
before i'd try not to get myself down and think about anything to do with you at times. but the memories make me smile now. so it doesn't matter anymore. i'm stronger now.
take care mister

friday

today was good, brandan talked to me more.i wish him a happy birthday and gave him a birthday hug. it didn't make me feel so lonered cause we were talking.
so confused about this whole 'c' thing, talked to jacob about it. farout =/ .
ran into Jordan today on several occasions, he keeps stuffing up his tie and then i questioned him today '' why do you keep stuffing it up? so messy == ''
and he responds '' because that way you can tie it for me everyday ''
and i went silent and then said '' oh is that right? LOL ''
and then like he'll keep walking me to the front gate, and making up an excuse like ' oh my step mums there shes gonna pick me up, so yeah '' or some crap, but after i pass the gate, i turn around and he looks back and gives me his trademark goofy smile and walks off .
i sigh heavy and laugh thinking ''not again.''

--------------------------o

suddenly, without warning, without reason;
that hopeful spark; that glowing instinct dies.

once more the wind cools her heart,
that station long stopped running,
the course, the passage, closed;
heart station froze.

going away, she'll be back safe
then she'll start clean, brand new slate,
day by day that whisper, that single urge, becomes stronger;
that crippled delicate voice, innocent, more urgent with despair.

She doesn't understand, all meaning refuses to reach her,
baffled she waits, quiet, no words nor emotion,
all she knows is her heart station froze.

collection

wednesday -

walked to school, wasn't able to text craig because of lack of credit.

had a rage fit.

went in middle school to library with friends (: , saw jordan ended up fixing his tie for him and his shirt collar. that silly boy, so untidy ==. he hugged me and said thankyou. and then tried giving jemimah a trippy hand shake, and she was all like

'' -watches hand movements in amazement- dayummmm!''

he said byebye to me and jemimah & gave me another hug D:

there was new elective signups, was thinking of signing up with judy & kat .

ended up staying back with them cause i had nothing better to do.

craig texted me , made me 'awww' . used judys phone to text back, he replied made me go 'awww' again. ==

i hate sweet texts.

thursaday -
well, today started off somewhat lame.

but i had graphics class with bessie :D , chris and i gave eachother somewhat strange/awkward glances. we never talk , apparently i'm too quiet so he's too scared to talk to me.

i had a good jap class with henry (:

music class was next, it seemed abit dull, jordan was missing.

i was pretty quiet, until angela and natacha started talking to me whilst we were doing piano/keyboard practice work ! FINALLY! O:

i enjoyed playing it, although it made me somewhat blank minded and i zonned out alot. =/

had spare session & then went home.

kat and abby ended up coming over, kat was going to DIE if she didnt have the superjunior 4th album, so i was downloading it for her. LMAO. and within that time we were having conversations outside, one of which involved kat spilling the cup of water i had given her, and the splat opn the floor was in the shape of a uterus. she ended up seeing my dad goddammit ROFL.

he left the house to go pickup my mum from work and then kat and abby both came inside & went in my messy room == god damn you abby for looking at my bras ! and LMFAO at how you compared it to your chest and then Kats !

ahh today is good , i had a goodtime (:

jelly.

day started off with waking up at 9:00am.
received a text from abby and then i responded. but i wasn't allowed to go out with her.
and i told her not to go alone.
i went to sunny bank plaza with my baba today.
we went to watch iron man2.
i saw heaps of people from like ccc, and i was trying my best to hide .
saw Bessie, Joanna and it made me smile.
went a bought food to eat/ had a nice bubbletea (strawberryblendedice/rainbowjelly) and then i spotted rohan and natacha. and i was like 'kekeke' -runs- and rohan spotted me giggling. and he was like HEYYY!!!
and then i gave natacha a quick hug and said byebye.
i was walking around and saw that ashiiee chick. hm.
& ended up buying a new jumper/jacket with stars on it. it's so cute.
then i ended up going to gardencity. and like bought stuff for my mum for mothers day. saw the sluts from ccc, ignored them.
and then i saw abby walking away from the bubbletea store and i was like ABBYY!! and we talked, and she wasn't alone, she was with her bro and other friends. good girl (:
then i went to breadtop and got yummy pastrys, and taro buns. mmm ^___^

rahrahrah

generally i enjoy my last class , maths.
yet it was opposite today.
some cunt thought he could steal my ipod. and when i knew it was missing, i accused him. and i was right.
he thought he'd get away with it, and called me a stupid bitch. then to further my already anger and frustration he unzipped his pants, and flashed me saying " FUCKING CHECK ME ".
asshole.
i called him a fucking cunt.
& i ended up getting my ipod back.
i hate maths class now. (:

walked home in ignorance of others around me. silence was what i needed.
has cooled off now. not ever leaving things in my bag again.

fob guy.

i had a good day today,

graphics class first up,

then break/ hadtogotojapclassnomorebailingwithhenry. LOL.

jap teacher was pissed with me but it was cyber rarastupidchildrara.

when she knows im smart & all.

music class ; had to get split up into groups.

was with jordan, john mika and Jason.

talked / met jordan for the first time & he was being so super nice to me.

random acts of kindness make the day better .

got home & was in the best chipper mood ever. today has been on of the greatest days i've had in a while.

drank apple juice.

ate grapes.

tired

had a long day today,

had art class , did work,

had math class, it was good, till jacob left . he's now in prevoc math, how homo D:

had some weird assembly thingo & after that i went to middle school.

then i stayed with kat & judy & rickii at their elective cause i cbfed going home cause there's nothing to do.

shit loads of homework to do ; i'll get it done, an all nighter (; !

/distract.distract 'nu abo' plays in background /distract. i love rnb and kpop&jap songs now, it's become my life . song are always there for me when no one else is (:

note

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elephant

kiana managed to put a smile on my dile after a somewhat shitty return to my house.

eunice returned from overseas (:

music class was lamee ,

english class was fun, kenny and i sat next to eachother . i wrote in his organiser and filled out a sickslip note thingo and wrote random stuff ahaha .

sucks that he'll be lonered when he comes back from overseas cause i'll be gone overseas LOL.

after school i was walking & richii saw me, and i gave him an awkward smile and looked away, and i looked back up and he smiled again & he was like, ''asyaaaa, do you have anymoneyyy? ''

and we talked- ish over the whole money thing.

so i ended up giving him all the spare change i had. :L

glad to know we can be normal around eachother. hmm.

jai talked to me today & made strange accusations that i watch porn in school. and i walked away. well actually i ran to my dads car. ahaha. it was raining and making my hair shitty. >>

came home & saw shit i didn't want to see . got angry, got pissed, got the shits.

fbed my anger.

is what homo`s do best (:

kiana started talking. anger is gone now, somewhat.

oh 3

hm. slept abit longer than i thought i would, strange dream, reallyreally strange dream prevented me from waking up.

last night i talked to kat, rohan, rea, tommy & michael (:

probably staying home today
can't be stuffed going out anywhere, not even if i want chips from the asian seafood store.

Listening to 2pm - i hate you
& katlikesweiners.
& reannanlikesvagina.

sun

the the sun was in my eyes when i woke up this morning after a somewhat horrifying dream.
i looked to my phone, no messages, no calls. i checked the time it was 11am.
i thought i'd go and splash my face to help me snap out of it.

went to garden city. bought sushi and the new apprentice guy behind the guy serving me wouldn't stop starring at me, and i was like -ah i wantthisthis, okaythankyou uhh byebye have a nice day- and the guy was like, ''wait your change '' and i turned back around more flustered than ever and embarrassed, and then other guy giggled and smiled at me and i was like farout.
and there was this black guy checking me out when i went into woolies i LOLed .
i texted Abby, and texted some more and some more.
I've been talking to her pretty much all day.

went to this special jewellers place, looked at sapphires, opals and all other gems, it was amazing absolutely stunning.

got home, did chores. realised it was the 1st of may.
now just chilling and watching rugby.