numbness.

ahh it's 10 minutes before afternoon, goodmorning (: .
mosquitoes attacked me yesterday and i have welts on my legs,i was hitting my legs and i feel stupid for doing so considering i didn't kill any.

ahh i did a huge clean out of my room, and had to pack everything in a travel bag for nsw ! D:
the wedding will be weird, last time i went to one i was 10 ish i think. can hardly remember anything, all i rememebr is i would constantly be eating the small bread left on the tables for us.
i had to iron my dress ( don't know how that works) maybe a dry cleaner kingdom or something. wait, i mean't place not kingdom. LOL
i have hayfeaver now, and im tired.
why is everyone getting their L's , I WANT TO GET MY L'S BUT IM NOT OLD ENOUGH LOL D:
not fair, but im happy for all of you, continue doing good cause i support you all in your achievements.
butterbiscuit i want to call your number, but im scared that when you pick up i'll go quiet or giggle and then hang up.
so very typical of me.
ahh i can't believe so many people have told me my voice is so soft on the phone.
my voice is just....it's not cute okay. stop it LOL
it's embarassing for me. i don't know why i speak soft i just do. i've even started talking less in real life, in which suprises myself.

i'll post more to my blog later, bye guys and take care.

desire.

it is the afternoon.
you are acting differently today, it makes me feel abit better.
it reminds me of the you before. and makes me feel liek nothing has ever changed. don't change for anyone.
(:

ahh, im eating chocolates , they are called 'desires'
interesting name, but by eating them , does it make my desires go away, or does it fufil them?. that is the question.
but , oh ho something else that is interesting is,
D'Rosario.
yes joel. yes i know your last name. kekeke.
and i know your birthday too. jackie confirmed it with me. and it actually is on the 2nd of october, ha ha joel. ha ha. let's all send him a leopard print gstring ! 8D

happy day :D

i wake up, not startled but overcome with alot of emotion.
i cried depite his words constantly being said in my head, "you promised me you wouldnt cry anymore, smile asya"
i smiled, tears suddenly stopping and dried away.
i went back to sleep, hoping you'd text me soon.
bzz bzz, bzz bzz.
there it went, my phone made me jump, anxious to see what reply i had gotten.
it wasn't him though, it was jackie baby, which made a huge grin appear on my face.
it doesn't matter, when ever she talks to me i suddenly feel like shes sitting right next to me. just her words make me happy, they comfort me, so i smile and laugh, even though she can't hear me or see me.
when im in nsw, i hope i get some phone calls so im not so lonely.

just the texts alone was enough to make my day,
jackie ----
LMAO LOL LOL LOL OH ILY
asya ------
aww LOLOL! I LOVE YOU TOO ♥
jackie ----
♥

im all smiles.

today is the 27th.
i wonder what it'd be like to attend church once.
again the little girl comes to the front door requesting to play with my brother.
shes really happy, always is.

GOOD NEWS.
I GOT MY DRESS FOR THE WEDDING.its silky and sexy im too scared to wear it. D:
BABA , WHY DID YOU LET ME PURCHASE THIS ITEM ?! D:
now all i need is silky black shoes to match it.which im going to look for today
i have
- dress
- bolero pull over
- clutch purse
- special make up bought for the occasion
- i might buy a hair pin/ necklace / braclet depending on how it goes, but id rather just raid my jewellery box. and find the antique silver things my abuela gave me.(:

ah and also, this means the date for the wedding draws alot closer.
crap.
nsw on the 3rd of jan.
D:
i don't think i'll have much access to internet/msn. luckily i'll have my phone, so peoples, call me /text me!
i love you all. and best wishes for new year.
god bless you all.

♥

forgetful.

as usual i've been forgetting to type to my blog.
i apologise for this.
( doesn't even know why she's apologising) LOL

well this morning, I woke up at 1 am, shocked after a quite unusual dream.
I'm not sure what it means exactly but iv'e tried interpreting the meaning for myself and i think i might be right but im not so sure, so first I'll start by typing the events which took place in my dream here. and then explain what i think it all means.

im not sure why, but i was in a car crash again.
this time, my face and skin was horribly distorted forcing me from the traumatic shock , into a long progressive coma.
i wake up, by this time it's my 16th birthday.
i scream, the reflective panes of glass showing me such extravagant beauty.
i question , how why,, when , WHY again.
i was a creamy pale white in colour, I was thin and slim.
my eyes glowing a quite unnatural shade of green tinged with almond.
i was no longer myself any more, my hair had grown out, my personality had changed,
but i was quick to learn to walk again,I was co-operative but only when it benefited me. I had become rather selfish.
before i knew it 4 weeks had passed,It was Andy's birthday, 1st of September.
i was smiling, happily dashing over to him whilst attempting to hide a huge stuffed teddy bear behind my back, but obviously failing.
he smiled briefly, it was somewhat distant.
i ignored this small problem, and continued talking. until finally he asks
" why did you even bother?"
i was confused, i didn't understand what he meant.
"what do you mean andy? i bother because it's your birthday" my eyes shifted their gaze away from his.
"i mean, I EVEN BOUGHT YOU A GIFT!:D, don't you want to see what it is, ojii san? :D"
"no" he replied cold and flat" you don't understand your not in love with me anymore.stop pretending to make me happy, you love someone else don't you?"
his expression seemed painful, but his thoughts were only him doubting my love.
" WHAT? I've been in a coma for i..i..I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW LONG ANDY, WHAT IS THIS. WHAT IS THIS TELL ME PLEASE! "
" it's nothing because to you, im nothing." he walked off.
i sat in my chair crying, the teddy bear continued to smile, the stitchings on its face unmoving of course.
" don't smile at me like that mr.teddy bear, your wide smile only pains me"
a few months had passed I think, I changed again. but i don't know if it was a good change.
someone confessed to me, " I love you"
who was it?
their face is blurred, but all I could see was their smile, the huge smile that pained me, that reminds me of him.

but for some reason I smiled back, and repeated those three words.
" I love you "

okay so my understanding of this, is that,
perhaps i will go through a change so big, it will affect my life in so many ways, the view on how i see things and also my friends.
and i won't necessarily be happy?
i'll end up losing someone that means alot to me?
and someone confesses to me? although I'm not sure who it was. =/

it's true.

when i first saw you i was afraid to meet you.
when i met you i was nervous to kiss you.
when i kissed you i was scared to love you.
now that i love you im afraid of losing you.


let's live for today,
because yesterday is over,
and tomorrow might not ever come.

scissors,paper,rock

i understand how scissors can beat paper, and i get how a rock can beat scissors, but there's no fucking way a paper can beat rock. is paper magically meant to wrap around rock and leave it immobile? why the hell can't paper do this to scissors? screw scissors, why can't paper do this to people? why aren't sheets of college ruled notebook paper constantly suffocating students as they take notes in class?
I'll tell you why, because paper can't beat anybody. a rock would tear that shit up in two seconds.
when i play scissors, paper, rock I always choose rock. then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper i can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, OH SHIT IM SORRY , I THOUGHT PAPER WOULD PROTECT YOU , YOU ASSHOLE :@

i spelt scissors wrong [siccors] LMAO.
kat told me, i went back and fixed it for her, also so i wouldnt look so noob.

sleeping habbits

chihan was sleeping, so we decided to talk to him in his sleep.
he started yelling.

'' we-- WE WE WE WON'T MAKE IT OUT ALIVE ! ''
us - why? why won't we make it
chihan - THEY ARE GOING TO EAT US
us - who?
chihan - THE WHALESSSS !!
me - fuckign bastard , hes even calling me a whale in his sleep == -hits him-

LMFAO. my brother was speaking to the dvd player.
dvd player switched on and it goes
'' hello ''
and my bro's like

oh my , hello to you too =D

me - who the hell are you talking to? o.o
bro - dvd player
me - im not even gonna, yeah.. nevermind retart.

gummybears.

im happier now.
last night i watched spongebob for an hour to clam me down, and ate the rest of my gummybears.

andy made me feel happy and
i made andy feel happy last night, that's all i ever wanted.

kat made me laugh this morning.
so i hope this day doesn't suddenly go bad.

:D

it hurts.

i had to tell you.
despite how bad it was, i had to.
now that ive told you, you probably don't want to talk to me for a long time.
i don't understand, why does this always happen to me, i don't want it, i never ask for these problems. and yet, it happens.

i love you.
i always will.
why do others have to try and stop this, interfering with me.
confusing me.
messing up my head.
i dont understand anymore.

or maybe, i just dont want to understand.
today was meant to be a good day for you and for me, but i ruined it.
i always end up ruining things
and i don't even know how.

LOL.

this morning michael started a conversation with me, as usual my eyes are squinty. he invited me to start viewing webcam but i read it wrong and thought he wanted me to start sending..

----------------------
-    .m    aikeru    ★彡彡彡     is inviting you to start viewing webcam. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?
----------------------

and i was like


a    sy   a     ; (F) ☆ says:
D:
   .m    aikeru    ★彡彡彡     says:
ill shwo you what im gonna wear
(:
-------------------------
You have accepted the invitation to start viewing webcam.
-------------------------
-    .m    aikeru    ★彡彡彡     says:
ok i jus woke up soo shh


LOL i had to read it twice. i like what he was wearing though. ahah, and also LOL at your wake up face. kekeke (:
last night ---------o
- texted ojii san
- texted teddy
- texted brenda
- texted ojii san again.
- texted teddy again, and then fell asleep, and lost my phone in the sheets of my bed, woke up and saw he texted me and thought i was ignoring him, i apologised.

then i went to sleep at 3:48 am LMFAO.

relatives =.=''

okay so it's 12:35 in the afternoon.
my cousins ( nizai *16, chihan *13 ) and uncle (rama-zan *40 somthing i dunno ) are staying over my house for a week, too bad if they see me wearing weird shit, the'yll have to get used to it, my house, my rules bitch.

okay so,im at my house, in the loungeroom, fan going at full speed, wearing a short singlet and short shorts that won't seem to stop riding up D:
it's so hot. my eyes are sore. my body aches. okay, i think i'll stop complaining now.
late at night yesterday,
my brother was like to my cousin chihan,

bro - yo, chihan, lap , upstairs my room, 10mins
chihan - OH YEAH SURE ! =D
but little did i know that they were talking about a racing car game.

also, there was another moment just ebfore they went to bed
bro - CHIHAN LETS GO SLEEP, TOGETHER NOW!
chihan - oh my, he seems pretty excited. O:

my cousins have changed alot since the last time i saw them, they are actually kinda cool now, chihan watches anime, and hes a perverted bastard. i think im goonna like this. LFMOALMFOA

WHY DO YOU FLUSH YOUR FISHIES. D:<

;; FATTY;♥ says:
*ahahahha
*ahhhhhh get me a bf
*yes?
*ill pay you 20 cents.
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*LMAO
*SO CHEAP FATTY
*WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU !
*LOL
;; FATTY;♥ says:
*THEYRE NOT WORTH ANOTHER CENT
*also the corner doesnt pay as much anymore
a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*mmm
*deal ?
*LOL
;; FATTY;♥ says:
*hahha yes
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*ill find an asian, stalk him doan.
*tie him to a chair
*ditch him in the park
*and let the shex begin
;; FATTY;♥ says:
*im aroused
*OMG
*TODAY
*I WAS WATCHING
*DHARMA AND GREG
*RITE
*RITE
*AND
*THEY WERE WITH
*THIS COUPLE
*AND THE CHICK NAMED THEIR CAR
*AND GREG
*WSA\
*LIKE TO THE HUSBAND
*'I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. OUR TOASTERS NAMED POP UP WILLY'
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*LMFAO
*im so cheap man, you just bought me with 20cents
*:L
;; FATTY;♥ says:
*hahahah
a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*i liek the toasters name
*can i purcahse that off ebay?
**purchase
;; FATTY;♥ says:
*yes
*along with sexable fish
*i should know
*(H)
a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*oh yes you should ;]
;; FATTY;♥ says:
*omg
*lets eat banans
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
**bananas

*?
*LOL
; FATTY;♥ says:
*yes
*BRB GETTING ON
**ONE
*HAI CHAAA
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*LMFAO
*for some reason i read that as
*' BRB GETTING IT ON '
*and im like, fattys getting it on with a banana o.o
;; FATTY;♥ says:
*HAHAHAHAHAHA
*and jatz biscuits (H)
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*BAM BITCH
*ITS IN MY BLOG
*LOLOL

*NO I WILL NOT BATHE YOUR WHALE - for fatty

Abbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy says:
*I LOVE YOU ASYA
*SO MUCH
**HUGS*
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*I LOVE U ASYA BAY BEH
Abbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy says:
*I LOVE YOU MORE THAN L
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*LMFAO
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*>>" yeah srsly.. i just got shot. shit.. yah halo.. wooeep
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*i think ill chill and let you work this out about who lovees me more
*``
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*faaacck
*OKAY
*I LOVE ASYA
*AND
*HAD
*ASS
*SEX

*WITH HER
*MANY TIMES
*NO
*COUNTLESS TIMES
Rea~ :3 says:
*question...
*how is ass sex a form of loving?
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*shoot
Abbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy says:
*...
*you win
*LOL
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*it is.
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*its nto called maing love for no reason
Rea~ :3 says:
*isent it just
*pleasure
*or something
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*its kinky, hot , kinky. err did i say hot?
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*making*
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*``
*LMFOA
*[:
Abbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy says:
*its is basically love making if you love that person very much
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*yah love making.. im makign love to asyas ass, cas i love her.. very very mcuh so.
*KAYTHEN HALO!!
Abbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy says:
*okay~

car crash.

okay so like. yesterday i was in a car crah ahaha.
my mums brakes in the car jarred up, and because it had just been raining the road was wet, our car went sliding down the road and smashed into the other two cars infront of us.
i have internal bruising, tissue damage tissue brakages near my ribs and undermy ribs, burising going across my stomach.and possibly, i could have damaged my spleen form the whiplash. but other wise. im okay.
thank god.
what i wished for in the wishing well came true. as of today
i wished for everyones happiness and well being.
everyones okay D: THANK GOD. I DON'T CARE IF I GET FUCKED UP AS LONG AS EVERYONE ELSE IS FINE D:

today i todl andy what happened.
hes worried i know he is, but he just doesnt want to show it to me.
but thats okay. everyone, dont worry im still alive. ahahha.

so ill end todays post with this.

a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*NOM NOM NOM D;<
Abbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy says:
*yeah
*LOL
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*NOM NOM NOM
Abbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy says:
*NOM
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*woooo
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*OM NOM NOM NOM NOM
*D;<
*BEAT THAT
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*uhh uh
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*LOLOL
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM -rabbits ucddles small bottle-
Abbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy says:
*OM NOM NOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM NOMNOM NOM
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*OMFG
*SO cute :3
*i happily fail
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*YEAHH!
   a    sy   a     ; (F)☆ says:
*with pride
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*sweeet
Abbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy says:
*i think i failed too
*LOL

game on !

(10:42 PM) -: baha
(10:43 PM) -: mmn,mbncv,nmvc,ngblkfdj
im epic
(10:43 PM) asya ; SI: hump, fnukinjukmiwe, dijewri, dufhundiqd
i win
(10:43 PM) -: tru
D=
(10:44 PM) asya ; SI: D: sorry
LOL
i like to challenge people
ahaha
(10:44 PM) -: i challenge you
to a
duel
(10:44 PM) asya ; SI: ohwoah
(10:44 PM) -: with yugioh cards !
o.o
(10:44 PM) asya ; SI: LOL!
i dont
have anymore
of them
(10:44 PM) asya ; SI: i used to though
when i was in
year 4
?
(10:44 PM) -: i summon blue eyes white dragon
and put 2 face down cards
(10:45 PM) -: and i end my turn
(10:45 PM) asya ; SI: i summon dark magican girl DEFENCE MODE , and place one face down
end my turn
(10:46 PM) -: i stab myself
you win
D=
(10:46 PM) asya ; SI: D:
dont you know anymore
D:
LOLOL
(10:46 PM) -: nope
LOL
i place pikachu in attack mode ?
and attack your life points directly
and i use the agic card pot of greed
(10:46 PM) -: and draw 3 cards from my deck
and place 2 face down
and end my turn
gg
you lose
(10:47 PM) asya ; SI: D:
(10:47 PM) asya ; SI: THAT WAS MY FACE DOWN, I AHD POT OF GREED BISH LOL
LOLOL
(10:48 PM) -: well yoo late for you
too*
(10:48 PM) asya ; SI: i discard dark magican girl in return to my hand, and draw a card and place it face down, i now have the ability to summon blastoise
he molests you directly
(10:49 PM) -: D=
i summon horny jaco
(10:49 PM) -: jacob
and he rapes your 8000 lifepoints
then rapes you
then you lose
i win
the end
gg

(10:50 PM) asya ; SI: i summon my face down card, REVIVAL OF RAPE=AGE
i now am back alive
(10:50 PM) asya ; SI: therefore, i get revenger on you
(10:50 PM) -: on jacob rapes you again
you lose again
(10:50 PM) asya ; SI: santa rapes you
and i win
(10:50 PM) -: jacob can rape at anytime
(10:50 PM) asya ; SI: D;<
(10:50 PM) -: so wehn you revive
he rapes you
so you lose again
i win
you cant eat a horny jacob

(10:57 PM) asya ; SI: LOLOL

goodafternoon.

okay so afew days ago i went to the goldcoast.
this was the day before teddys birthday.
and bought him a present.
but, when i saw a wishing well. i paused for a breif moment.i felt like a child that had never made a wish in one before.
so i made three wishes.
1. i wish to see/touch snow in real life.
2. i wish for everyone to be happy. any sadness they bear is sadness i try help them with.
3. this wish, is a secret. hehehe

ive realised my blogs havent bene that long anymore. and for good reason. nothing major has bene happening i guess.
ahh andy misplaced his phone in his big ass house == noob.
and rohan left $3000 dollars in his wallet, that he lost, but it was all along in this pants.
LLOLOLOL. fellow noobs, you have my support in these matters. :D

JOEL FAILED

this morning i text teddy at 12 am , wishing him a happy birthday.
i think i was the first one to say happybirthday to him LOLOL. score !

a    sy   a     ; (F)       SILVER        ☆   DREAM     says:
*ah dad im not hungry
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*NO WAI
   a    sy   a     ; (F)       SILVER        ☆   DREAM     says:
*oh fuck i typed that instead of saying it
` katerina ♪ says:
* a huge grain of salt
   a    sy   a     ; (F)       SILVER        ☆   DREAM     says:
*wtf
*LMFAO
'Insignificant puppet' says:
*LOL WTF ASYA
Joel says:
*KIK
*LOL

next, um well i talked to khang, and got his number again.i lost it last time D: fail.
i texted him asking to buy me milk. it made him LOL
JOEL IS GAY.
oh shit where did that come from. it's from jackie. she told me to do it.
-shifty eyes-
im talking to jackie baby now, i don't know why, but talking to her has been making me feel so happy lately, i miss her alot. so i feel very comforted when i hear / read her words [:
message to khangii, you're not lonely, i'm still here if you want to talk. i won't ditch you. and also, more importntly, if you ever go emo on me, i know where you live. so keep that in mind.
- texted brenda
- texted debra
- texted andy
- mocked andys friend daniel wong he is snow white =D
IM SORRY DANIEL BUT ITS FUNNY WHEN YOU GET ANGRY AAHAHAHAHA

ddring on iphone D:

okay guess what. I GOT MY FUCKING PHONE BACK FINALLY -dies-
it went like this.

dad - asya.can you do something for me?
me - what?
dad - blah blah blah, and ill pay you.
me - how much
dad - name your price
me - phone back
dad - deal

ahh. so smart i am. so smart
ahh so anyways.
ill start texing people like crazy later at night.
god im miss texting people so much D:
cause i cbf to charge it now.. LOLOL.

noobs. :3

      Rohan             says:
*LOL
*LAMO
*LMFAO*
*my sister broke a pencil
*and then
*she gets a bandaid
*and puts it back together
*and says dont break my pencil brother

this reminds me of myself.
i think i like this very much so.
LMFAO.

injured bird [ written by asya ]

[this song is meant to be sung to a girl by a boy]

the brackets, is when the girl sings.

- - - - - - - - -o
I dry my eyes,
I can now see things much more clearly.
but to my suprise,
you're walking away from me.

I say, " Take my hand (my hand) I'm not leaving you "
you tell me, "It's to late to try again"
I never told you this was over,
please dont try to pretend.
I never said this was over,
but you had to make it end.

Don't lock me out of your heart,
(I couldn't if I tried)
Don't close these doors on me
(Im trying to set you free)

( you're an injured bird, in my arms.
i can't take back these words, that made you hurt.
even if i try, i'll make it worse, so please give up on me.)

I'll never stop chasing you.
( why can't you let me be? )
I'll never stop chasing you.
( i've set you free)
I'll never stop loving you
( you can heal on your own )
( I'll always love you , can't you see ? )

no.
I close my eyes
no, no.
I try to sleep.
you're all that's on my mind.
( I Love you)
Your love is much too kind.
( go to sleep, rest your eyes injured bird.)

If only i could tell you in words, just how much that I Love you.

im santa.

ho ho ho

random post.

a    sy   a     ; (F) says:
*i think
*i'd be a good santa claus
*[:
- debra. says:
*you ?
   a    sy   a     ; (F) says:
*yes
*LOL
- debra. says:
*ROFL why?
   a    sy   a     ; (F) says:
*except im not fat
*and big
- debra. says:
*im scared of santa
   a    sy   a     ; (F) says:
*and im not an old man
- debra. says:
*like you know
*the ones in
   a    sy   a     ; (F) says:
*and i dont have a beard
- debra. says:
*the shopping malls
   a    sy   a     ; (F) says:
*santa is just an excuse for peods
**pedos
*D:

-          &    тє∂∂ч     says:
*LOL
*awreally now (;
   a    sy   a     ; (F) says:
*oh yes.
*ho ho ho
*;]
-          &    тє∂∂ч     says:
*santa clause is sexy
   a    sy   a     ; (F) says:
*im santa
*[:
-          &    тє∂∂ч     says:
*sexy
*baha
   a    sy   a     ; (F) says:
*oh yes, very sexy
*i like people sitting in my lap. i like to grant them wishes
*[:
-          &    тє∂∂ч     says:
*you pedo !
*bahahaha

i wish.

i close my eyes
and dream far away
cause i know someday
i'll see you again

i close my eyes
and dream for the other day
tomorrow's not that far away
i'll see you again

♥


- - - - - - - - - - - - -o
i dont ask for much. you ask too much of me


J - why must you do this?
J - why me?
J - why are you always putting those hearts after everything? like this - ♥
J & A - why are your words so kinky?
J - why do you always talk to me and tell me to take care?
J & A - why do you act so kind?
J & A - why do you confuse me so ?
J & A - why do you care so much ?
- please stop?
J & A- do you realise you're hurting me?
A - do you realise how much i love you?
J - do you know how many times i want to tell you, 'no, don't say that' ?
J - do you realise how much you remind me of someone?
A - do you realise how much i want you in my arms?
- do you realise that you're the reason i never get sleep?
J - why do you always apologise to me for small things?
J & A- why...i don't know. tell me please? D:


[ these questions werent all directed to one person in particular, it was alot of people, feel free to comment and answer them if you wish? ]

friday morning.

me and Tzu yu ( my new friend)
had a race to see who could say goodmorning first.
asya - ✖
tzuyu - ✖
- - - - - - - - - -o short intermission
--> Kotoba wo Sagasu Yorimo|artist :KELUN|album: 一人分の愛 feat.戎三穂 ~ (:
nice song
- - - - - - - - - -o end intermission
okay well, we agreed on a tie.
cause her clock was slow LOL :D

4/12/2009 12:00:01 AM wǒ jiào ; asya. (F) GOODMORNING (happy)
4/12/2009 12:00:03 AM wǒ jiào ; asya. (F) BOO YEAH
4/12/2009 12:00:05 AM wǒ jiào ; asya. (F) LFMOA
4/12/2009 12:00:06 AM TZUYU.vik Goodmorning!!!!!!!!!!hohoho
4/12/2009 12:00:08 AM TZUYU.vik ==
4/12/2009 12:00:09 AM TZUYU.vik wtf
4/12/2009 12:00:14 AM TZUYU.vik damnn
4/12/2009 12:00:17 AM TZUYU.vik >:(!!
4/12/2009 12:00:21 AM wǒ jiào ; asya. (F) OH YES IM QUICK
4/12/2009 12:00:22 AM wǒ jiào ; asya. (F) LFMOA
4/12/2009 12:00:28 AM wǒ jiào ; asya. (F) D:
4/12/2009 12:00:29 AM TZUYU.vik my clocks slower than yorus!
4/12/2009 12:00:32 AM TZUYU.vik what the ducks
4/12/2009 12:00:33 AM TZUYU.vik :D

Tzuyu you are really cool LOL
( あなたはかっこいいです. ^O)!!

♪

my eyes hurt, they are dry. not from crying. but because i keep refusing to close them.
im tired.
but what am i tired of?
duìbuqǐ.
duìbuqǐ.
duìbuqǐ.
i felt like that was the dramatic effect.
ahaha.
ah eugene made me hungry.
i don't know how. he just did.
-goes and makes a smoothy-
(:
- - - - - - - - - - - -o
I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU
SO FEEL YOU
I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU
I FEEL YOU

(no worry..)


( arigatou ne )

- - - - - - - - - - - -o

I don't care what happens anymore
So let's just love each other tonight.

Selfish love
Love me, cause I love you
This is my way of love.

Cheers to this egoistic night.

I don't really need forever
So just be by my side tonight.

Selfish love
Love me, cause I love you
This is my way of love.

I will for me, you will for you*
And I'll be me, and you be you
- - - - - - - - - - - -o

i joke i joke.

rea knows what i'm talking about...
you're a girl. I WIN.
you're a girl. I WIN.
you're a girl. I WIN.
yes i am a man. I STILL WIN. AHA!
LMFAO.
- - - - - - - - - - -o
today i had a super day with my bonds wearing, rawr-ing dinosaur, lazer shooting, pew pew pew noise making friend REA. AISHITERU YO !
we ate sushi, and then decided to explore the magical land of
HUNG'S ASIAN SUPERMARKET - asians not sold here. only edible items.

i bought haruhi noodle chips. -fangirl scream- (her mother thinks they are strange)
and bought lollies. I STILL HAVE THE RECIEPT!
- $11.15 well spent (Y)
- GST Included $0.77
mother fuckers adding gst. tsk. i'll rape their assholes. D:<
atleast it claims that we were discounted.
- % Discount $0.00
ah-ha-ha arent they quite the comidians.

when i went to pick up rea, her brothers friend keep opening the blinds and starring at me, and as i looked back, he'd close the blinds really fast and act like i couln't see anything. this continued for several minutes until rea came out of her house. i LOLed.
note for you mr.friend of steve(rea's brother): i saw you, and you fail epicly at perving LMAO.

ah rea. sorry about looking at the beds. (laughs)
swapping shoes was fun, but your feet i think are a tiny bit bigger than mine?
-shifty eyes-
i hope today was a good day for you :D
anytime, you just ask. im up for it rea. ^ ^

LOLOLOLOL. im not sexy. im not hot D:

SHINee - 누난 너무 예뻐 (Replay) Piano Version
makes me want to cry. so nice~ la la
- - - - - - - - - - - - - -o
asya ; zai nan says:
nah.
you dont have too

i wanna see their reaction
and then be like
)': but i already lvoe someone -starts to go all sensitive0
- [c=13] Rohan/c=8] says:
im reserved bitches
asya ; zai nan says:
LOLOL
YES SAY THAT
or or
i only love gay men hmph.

- [c=13] Rohan/c=8] says:
LOL

ahhaahhaaa
and i can see them turn gay
and say
oh were gay
go out with us
asya ; zai nan says:
LMFAO
BUT IF THEIR GAY
THEY CANT GO OUT WITH ME
AYE AYE ;]-
[c=13] Rohan/c=8] says:
LOL
asya ; zai nan says:
CHYEAH IM SMART
!
LOLOL
- [c=13] Rohan/c=8] says:
but they'lll be like doesnt matter we'll make a exception for you
asya ; zai nan says:
LOLOLOL!!
but then that means their bi
THEY ARE BREAKING THE CONTRACT IF THEY DO THAT
D:
LOLOL
- [c=13] Rohan/c=8] says:
LOLOL

asya ; zai nan says:
* the gay laws contract hmph

- [c=13] Rohan/c=8] says:
LOL
omg
im soo excited
i hope u being hugged
s:
im make sure its not sexual and they never let go of you

asya ; zai nan says:
LOLOLOLOL

sexual
reow ;]

LOL win.

kat and me are going to add a pedo teacher today on facebook.
mr. savva.
our old maths and science teacher.
we'll do it later, when she comes back from school at 2:30pm. :D
come join the fun. add him with us. lets start something big. LMFAO.

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?filter=lf#/search/?ref=search&q=milton%20savva&init=quick


hanate kusushiwa kun is pro. the game was fun.
scores --
tobi - ✖✖
hanate(hana kun) - ✖✖
we tied though D: so i win by default. i win, i win -childish giggle- nananananana. nice to make a new friend.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - -o
ELF: Do you love me?

Kyuhyun: So what if I do?

ELF: Kyuhyun I love you

Kyuhyun: Ah, the popularity of this lad( referring to himself)

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ELF: say that you accept love, say say

Kyuhun: say

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ELF: you are mine

Kyuhyun: I am mine

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would have been one month today. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ ♥♥
ㅠ.ㅠ
but it's not.
(side laughter) aha.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - o

oh my.

i woke up at 4 this morning.
another dream.
but it was one of those dreams. the good dreams. eugene would probably call it -jizz- LOL.
so. i went back to sleep.
woke up at five.
i had another 'good' dream. -perverted giggle-
why does this keep happening to me?

i typed something here before. but i deleted it. because this blog is open to public. not everyone would have seen that funny.

ah its funny how when i call you, you're never home lately.i would have called your mobile, but i doubt you would have picked up. your mum picked up the homephone today.
i don't think she liked the fact that i called =/.
her - hello?
me - um.. is andy home?
her - no.
me - oh, hes out somewhere...?
her - yes
me - um, could you just tell him later that 'asya called?'
her - okay.
me - um thank you bye.
her - okay bye.
LOL i actually didnt even need to tell her that it was 'asya' because she knows by now, im the only girl that ever calls you =/.

silence.

i called andy today.

once his home phone. i think his dad picked up.
his dad told me to call again at a later time. apparently andy wasnt home yet.
so i decided to call his mobile.
once.
twice.
no answer.
irritating beeps.
three times.
still, nothing.
i decided to call michael and tell him that andys not picking up.
michael gave me advice.
'' just um... spam him heaps and heaps of times. keep on calling ''
but i didnt want to call too many times.
four times.
fives times.
i gave up.
i didn't want to annoy you.
i'll just have to wait. i always wait LOL.

bananas are squishy.

i type too much. i never thought that blogging could become so obsessive.
some random man with a deep voice called me before.
and yelled over the phone to me
' MUM ! '
i was shocked.
me - um. what?
him - oh sorry love i must have gotten the wrong number.
he sounded embarrassed.i tried not to laugh.but i couldnt help myself and let out a short burst of laughter.
him - um sorry !
me - no no.its okay?
him - okay love. um goodbye. sorry.
me- bye (:
for somereason it made my day.

just a ps note for anyone that just so happens to read my blog.

This is a blog composed of my personal thoughts and feelings.

What I've written in my blog is solely my opinion and is not intended to hurt the feelings of anybody.

If your feelings are hurt by what I've written, you've nobody to blame but yourself for reading.

ha. (:

words.

words have no meaning.
emotion creates meaning.

happiness.
what is happiness?
smiling.laughter.warmth.hugs.kisses.
but this is only my understanding.
its alot more detailed than five words.
i just cant be bothered to type out everyword.
www.google.com
googling happiness seems like a good way to pass boredom. LOL.

i over slept. i hate it when this happens.
i wake up grumpy. unsatisfied.
again. my dreams are repetitively weird.
some random boy kept offering me coffee. how odd.
atleast a had a few good random dreams. in which im not going to type the content here because it is not g-rated. little kiddies. (:

tuesdays

today as you know is a tuesday.

this morning started off with.
dad - ASYA COME HERE NOW :@
me - oh fuck im in trouble again -mental sigh-
dad- hey hey hey now !
me - yes...-nervous tones in voice-
dad - I SAID COME HERE COME CLOSER!
me - yes? -moves closer-
dad - punches me and pinches me on the arm - PINCH AND A PUNCH FOR THE FIRST DAY OF THE MONNNTTTHHH~~hehehe :D -runs off giggling like a girl-

fuck you. you did white rabbit. i can't even get you back. == LOLOL

this also brings me to saying a few words.
christmas decorations. as long as its not near my house, my chainsaw will remain in the garage :D

tuesday is what i call my 'happy day' because they always are good days for me.
but i should make an exception for today, because im not so sure.
im quite the opposite.
rea.
im worried.
please. no more tears.
its good to cry it out. but not too much. like you said :
your eyes went puffy and red. ):
hey...just remember what i did. we counted the stars. and a magical mystical shooting star/airplane. =D
even though it shouldnt count. i still made a wish.
i wish for everyones happiness. including you. i love you rea.
you are one of my best friends and always will be (: