LOL.

- kat says:
*SHIT
*LAG
*LAG
*OOPS
*DC
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- kat says:
*SHIT MY BRAIN IS FALLING OUT
*CRAP
Abbyyyyyyyyyy ♥ says:
*:-O:-O
- kat says:
*I GOT SHOT
*IN THE HEART
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Joel says:
*those two have no correlation, but then again, neither does my reason for leaving
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- kat says:
*ok
brb i'm going to go sob in the corner
Joel says:
*i'm going to go steal kat's stuff while she's in the corner
Abbyyyyyyyyyy ♥ says:
*CHAMPENIS, CHAMPENIS FOR EVERYONE AND A SUPER SPECIAL GLASS FOR JOELLL
- asya (F) yummy. says:
*i'm going to watch joel steal kat's stuff in the corner
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- kat says:
*i'm going to stab myself in the eye
*seeya
Abbyyyyyyyyyy ♥ says:
*KNOW ABOUT L?
*
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Joel says:
*i'm going to go watch
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* Joel has left the conversation.
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- kat says:
*we're all secretly depressed and we want to slit ourselves
Abbyyyyyyyyyy ♥ says:
*):
*LOL
- kat says:
*we don't want you to see our emo pain
Abbyyyyyyyyyy ♥ says:
*about?
- kat says:
*so we leave
Abbyyyyyyyyyy ♥ says:
*LMFOA
Joel says:
*i'm secretly not secretly depressed, i just wanna watch the slitting

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Joel says (7:10 PM):
*hey look, a window that says press escape to win at life appeared
*let's press escape
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wasted..

you know that feeling you get when that person is on your mind and it feel so painful to even keep thinking.
my heead is throbbing. i have a headache, i woke up at 1 crying.
i looked at my phone , hoping, praying that i'd have a call waiting for me just like old times.
but nothing. and yet i still hope.
im so broken. and i keep trying to fix the holes in me.
but it's not working, and i keep fucking up.
i don't understand anymore.
brandan said he feels like hes not talking to asya when he talks to me.
have i really changed that much? ): this saddens me alot.
-sigh-
there's nothing much i can do. i want him to help me.
i want it to go back to last year. that's why i asked him on wednesday if i could come over his house. because i miss the old times. and we havent had a good talk in a long time. we need to. cause we are good friends. i dont want to lose him. he means alot to me as a friend and i hope he knows this.

smile please.

i've realised lately i've been doing stuff completely for my own benefit.
and its been making me feel like crap.
but temporarily, i feel like, im happy and i've found something. but i keep losing shit.
i keep losing my mind.
i keep thinking it's okay, but inside im screwing up.
so.
but despite this all, i feel happy in someways. because i guess. i don't know. certain people have been making me happy lately.
and i don't need to force myself as much.
yeah.
today was good. didnt go to school. i felt good, so free of care and worries.

greedy.

okay, it's morning. good. im awake.
glad to know my dream was ONLY a dream.
i salute you STUPID DREAM! i hope i never dream THAT again.
and why the fcuk was he in it. oh wait he was the last person i talked to yesterday. hmm.
i keep giving into temptation lately.
i realise this is bad.
i realise this is just...fuck.
im keep saying im going to regret it, but i won't.
i refuse to regret anything i've done if i enjoy doing it.
but, i just think, i've given up now. i can't be bothered.

- - - - - - - - - -o
don't you hate it when your half asleep and you do stupidly weird things?
apparently this is what i did last night at some random time...

asya: it's hot
my bro: why? what do you mean it's hot
asya: i wanna take my shoe off
my bro: why just one shoe? :L
asya: -starts to take off my jacket, falls asleep in process-
my bro: -puts blanket on me-
and he told me that i kept mumbling random shit. nice. ==



i search for the answers i've known all along,
i lost myself, nobody else.
never getiing wiser of what i've become,
alone i stand, i've broken hearted this man.
All i have, is on last chance;
I wont turn my back on you.
Take my hand, drag me down;
If you fall then i will to.
And i can't save whats left of you, cause as you go i do to.
So something new, i have nothing left,
i can't face this without you.
There's nothing left to lose, confusion never ends, but i want to face this with you.
Tell me that nothing matters,
tell me that things will not change,
tell me those memories from so long ago wont seem strange.
Tell me i can go on without you.

hm.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

52. We don't like girls who are too skinny.

53. We love it when girls talk about there boobs.

is this true? some guy give me answers! D:
i know that, 38, 47, 53 and 52 are right. but the others...oh yeah, guys would probably kill to read my mind. heh. LMFAO so 49 is right too.

thank you.

the past few days has been enjoyable for me.
yesterday, i was nervous, anxious and yet. you made me excited.
i enjoyed every moment of it.
i enjoy your company. i really do. im not lying.
youre taking a shower right now. LOL
so i thought i'd write alittle to my blog.
you've made me feel dirty, you manwhore. (:
just you, and all those little innocent and cute secrets you havent told me for a long time , made me feel so O:
i was amazed.
i thought you were lying.
but we both showed eachother that we can trust one another.
im happy.
thank you.

mao mao.

hum

thursday
8:45 - 10:23pm
friday
1:24 - 2:45am

mmm.
- - - - - - - - -o
you know you're really horny when you read the word 'cook' on a cake reciepe as 'cock'
- - - - - - - - -o
Tim says:
*haha
*well, i don't think your going to last long so go and do it
-    a    sy   a     (F) eating noodles says:
*LOL im eating
*:3
Tim says:
*hahas, what you eating?
-    a    sy   a     (F) eating noodles says:
*noodles
*LOLOLOLOL
i love the way he failed.
- - - - - - - - -o

''can we take a photo of you''
''what no no,nononno NO''
-3 kids chases afterme-
''we want a photo'' IMGOINGTOTHEFRONT OF THESCHOOL,TRY HAVING THE BALLS TO FOLLOW ME! HA!
-kids doesnt follow-
''yeah thats what i thought! victory! xD

- - - - - - - - -o
ahh im so bored at home.
i was so quite at times today, i was thinking about alot of things, nice things,interesting things, things to exercise my mind. mm.
im also confused.
i keep getting these feelings.
oh god, it harasses me so much.

oh...

okay yeah, i've been counting. who cares. it's not like anyone knows exactly what i'm counting on my messenger private message.

and OH YEAH. i don't have anymore student guidance counsilor !
wooo.
i think my issues have gone, she was sad when i said im feeling better now.
LMAO.
crazy woman trying to give me extra sessions when nothings wrong with me no more.
( ahaha. nah, shes actually really nice )

i found out who called me. it was thanh.
1 am in the morning. o.o
LOL
i was awake but because i didn't have his number, i had no idea who it was. hence, i did not pick it up.
i asked him
"um this might sound abit weird but did you call me at 1am in the morning?"
and he says ,
" ah yes i did, wanted to talk but then i was like, aww shes not picking up naaww she must be sleeping"
i wasn't asleep! and don't go and do a cute naaww at the thought of me sleeping ! D:
-sigh-
people think he's a bad person, but honestly just frcking talk to him, theres nothing wrong with him. hes a fucking nice guy. don't tell me you don't like him when you like don't even talk to him. for fucks sake.
this is probably why he thinks your boring.

i want better classes in school. fuck i want a good op when i finish next year !
if i don't, i'll make him cry. LOL
im smart! i need to push myself ~!

my mando is becoming more pro :D

Fuck your mom - Dew ney lo mo

fuck your dad would be ..dew ney lo da? LOLOL

bitch - pat boh

die, bitch - say pat boh
its like.. STUPID BITCH, FCKN BITCH, IDIOT BITCH, well it depends on your tone

man-whore - pat kong
its like the male version of bitch, i like this one:D

eat shit - sik see
uhmm... yeah not realli nice to say it

death to ur family - ham ka chan:
it doesnt really mean like in English, you say it when ur in a fight or when ur mad

dick - lok chat
it mean almost the same as 'shit!' or 'fuck!'

horny person - ham sap
its same as 'you horny'

smelly cheap cunt - chow fa hai:
same as ham ka chan

whore - kai

go to hell - yat chew:
this is pure cantonese the literally translation of go to hell is .. : heu say la ley!

ass - see fat:
i hate to hear this, its so so so so so not nice

fuck you - dew ney

gay - see fut kwai
see fut kwai literally means 'ass ghost', buuuut due to its pure canto it also means GAY

suck cock - ham lan

shut up - saw seng

shut the fuck up - saw deh lar

stupid - say chun
crazy - chi seen
silly - so so dey
retard - mow ley

better.

well, i haven't been typing to my blog much lately.
i just want to thank all the guys that worry about me so much.
you dont need to, but you do.

brandan
darro
tim
den
michael m.

- - - - - - -o
a few days ago i accidently tipped boiling hot water from a kettle onto my stomach.
i now have a huge scar.
great. (being sarcastic) -sigh-

ahh, yesterday i felt in a better mood than usual.
i was able to listen to a boy and his feelings.
he called me last night, depressed.
we talked.
during that day at school, i think i was the only one that he wanted to talk to.
he thinks im a nice person. im glad he wanted to talk to me. i understand how he feels.
i told him to take care. i dont want him to be hurt.
hes really a nice guy, but is very misunderstood by others. i want to be better friends with him. (:

i was ignored yesterday. by someone. but i dont really mind. as this person does it constantly and then will always come back to me a few days after.
im used to this.
why?
i dont know.

am i forgotten?

i wonder before i sleep, do you think about me just as much as i think about you?
i always have this small doubt, '' he'll forget me''
but it might be good if he does forget me. because. i know i won't forget anything. It'll always be in my memories.
until the next time we are able to talk.
which, sadly won't be soon.
the truth is i do miss you.
the truth is it does hurt me.
the truth is i cry because the memory of you haunts me.
; as i walk to school my shadow suddenly becomes two, and one holds my hands as i walk slowly down the path.the shadow would move and place his head on my shoulder. as i turn around i realise, it was just a memory, my hand was empty as i tried to hold you.
my memories are too real for my own good. as i sleep, the memories are re-acted in my mind. it's like, what first happened, is happening all over again.
but i like this feeling.because i always think. what if youre doing the same? what if this is happening to you to? and then i don't feel so bad, because it's hard on him to. and instead i smile,because i promised you.i don't like to break promises.
so it doesnt matter, all the small, silly, funny , sad, happy , weird, awkward things that you said or have done. these will remain with me, they are a part of me.

so i only hope that you don't feel empty. but please. please don't forget me. i want to see you only one last time. i only wish i could. to hold you one last time.