tired.

its sunday morning. 7:08 AM.
listening tooo...

Stay with you - capsule ~

im tired, i hardly got any sleep.thinking too much as usual.that's why
didn't help that i was texting brandan abit.the phone kept blinding me and i almost dropped it in my face.
and wesley is LOL.
too many guys making me smile nowadays. guess i kept your promise Andy, i hope youre keeping mine. i hope youre smiling too.
-sigh-
i just said his name. i havent done that in a while.
and moving onto other things.
i had a dream again.
what was it about?
well, im not sure exactly
he was there, but i dont know who he was
holding my hand, he was a shadow, face blurred
i can't remember things he said, but they made me happy, too happy
he held me in his arms. kissed me.
and then he smiled but i couldnt see his face, just his smile fucck. and i know that smile all too well. im not saying whos smile it wass. =/
but who was it, i dont want to think about who it was i guess?
-sighsighsighsighhhhhhh-
-facepalm-

i miss this affection. i really do. i need someone to hold onto so im sorry if i tend to get abit grabby or clingy. it's just cause im confused. and im not really sure what i want now. im sorry.