final goodbye.

so i took a while to think, i sat down all day
counted all those hours,noticed my mistakes.
The pain takes it away, I'm no longer sane.
You're hurt, it's no game, it's no gain.
I wish you know these words im trying to say,
although no words could describe this way.
I can't see me with those words, you'll never know what you never heard.
I can't apologise,you got me good; that blame fits me; that blame stays.
I cannot begin to stop, I can't explain. I'm going insane, my heart stops.
Because I've thought about this every single day, it kills me the sight of your name.
Although you'll never know what's in here what's in my mind
there's not that much left, im stuck , no longer can i climb.
I don't ask for forgiveness, i was wrong.
With these words I'll be strong. Hate me, Despise me. But will that make you a better person?
You've lost me forever, cause i forced it apon you to let me go.
I guess it's goodbye den. Takecare of yourself.