hurt.

the sun is shining, ouch.
i hate it being woken up by my brother. -sigh-
i want to go back to sleep , far out.
i only just got to sleep at 4. don't even ask why.
ahh,
what makes it even worse is that, rea was asking me if jemimah called and then i asked why what's wonrg and then she says dw, dw.
when you tell me not to worry, i worry !
D:
i should probably start my maths assignment, although im not sure where i've placed it.
my parents have been giving me lectures, i got more than 5 lectures yesterday as soon as they both came home.
about studies, being a failure, needing to focus,studiesstudies, looking after my brother, carrying on the family name with pride?, why do i never do my chores?! when i do them all the time.
it's alot of stress on me, because im the older sibling.
i get heaps of shit in my face, and i can't even stand up for myself.
It is so annoying when my baba tells me to focus , and get he's still planning on going randomly overseas in the middle of the year , YEAH GREAT ONE ! IM REALLY GONNA GET GOOD GRADES WHEN IM FRIKKEN OVERSEAS ! AHH !
speaking of which, it's coming up soon ):
june 7th i'll be gone.
and then coming back on the 9th of august.
i don't even get to have my 16th here.
and even worse, when i come back. it'd be strange.